listen... do you want to know a secret



i've been listening to lots of songs lately. after talking to a friend who is going for her PhD in psychology i found that a good remedy to attention deficit is to listen to an entire song, focus on the words, and not drift off thinking about something else. which defeats the purpose of a song in my opinion, but that's not what the point is. this is an excercize to learn to focus and not to appreciate how songs can take you away for a while.



so i found this new dave matthews song, called stay or leave. it pertains to my pathetic sad situaiton. you know boy meets girl. boy likes girl. girl likes boy. girl finds new boy. ya. that one...



i wanted to compose a song with daves son about this, (a break up song that pertains to me situation) i mean it's been done 10,000,005 times and counting, but i wanted to do a good one, a bit different... till i came across this song. and well yea. put me in my place. dave matthews isn't rich, famous, and loved by all for no reason. and for sure not for his looks, he's kinda goofy looking... (i still idolize him though)

stay or leave:

Maybe different but remember

Winters warm where you and i

Kissing whiskey by the fire

With the snow outside

And when the summer comes

In the river

Swims at midnight

Shiver cold

Touch the bottom

you and I

With muddy toes



Stay or leave

I want you not to go

But you should

It was good as good goes

Stay or leave

I want you not to go

But you did



Wake up naked drinking coffee

Making plans to change the world

While the world is changing us

Was good good love

You used to laugh under the covers

Maybe not so often now

But the way I used to laugh with you

Was loud and hard



Stay or leave

I want you not to go

But you should

It was good as good goes

Stay or leave

I want you not to go

But you did



So what to do

With the rest of the day's afternoon hey

Isn't it strange how we change

Everything we did

Did I do all that i should



That I coulda done



Remember we used to dance

And everyone wanted to be

You and me

I want to be too

What day is this

Besides the day you left me

What day is this

Besides the day you went



So what to do

With the rest of the day's afternoon hey

Well isn't it strange how we change

Everything we did

Did I do all that I could



Remember we used to dance

And everyone wanted to be you and me

I want to be too

What day is this

Besides the day you went babe

What day is this





i'm also very much-so considering becoming a voulnteer firefighter. i think that'd be a very important skill to have. hopefully by next year i'll be able to help save some houses and stuff.