Friday, May 30, 2003


who's your favorite girl on friends? (of course the TV show, what else would i be talking about) Ask any guy, he'll tell you that his favorite is rachael. I mean the one guy who could have any girl he wants (brad pitt) chose her (as far as i know they are/were married i don't keep up with celeb lives, i try to stray from it because supporting the paparazzi is wrong and immoral people who buy the national enquirer should die and have their toe nails pulled off with rusty pliers, well before they die.)

and of the guys on the show, ross for sure is the weird looking/goofy/non social one. So HOW does he end up dating/having a baby with her? It never works out that way. The cute girl in the group usually finds some loser that looks like he's not one, yet is behind his mysterious exterior which both he and the cute girl hide from the close knit group of friends. But ross is that guy in the group who is a loser and has no mysterious exterior cause everyone knows him from the beginning, and they all know this & wouldn't approve of him for her anyway, or her for him if she's the "i get around" type of girl... it never happens that way.

From my experience, if anything rachael would hook up with joey, they'd bone for a bit, then that's it while chandler and ross totally are sprung for her but never get any.

Phoebe on the other hand is my favorite. She plays the ditzy role (which i look past, because its just for slapstick, and america eats up slapsick for lunch dinner and breakfast, sometimes brunch) but she also is that girl who's into different & new things. Her personality is strong and she has passions unlike the other girls. She isn't made to look as pretty as in other films either for what reason i dunno i don't analyze friends THAT much. more than that where am i going with this? I dunno?

but yea how does ross get the hot one? there must be nerds writing this fantasy land script, I'm usually the ross, that's why... the one who likes nerdy things and went to school and has dorky hobbies, but somehow someone allows him to get all the girls..

Tuesday, May 27, 2003

life on hold

ive been living the last 3 months simply on hold. No the last 5 months. First i decided that life would start when i got myself a job. This took me 2 months. Then, i post-poned life another 3 months after getting a job, this time in need of my own appt.

Well in two weeks my own appt will be here. but will life start then? What is life 'starting' anyhow? Saving more money? Meeting more people?

I can say that for sure i will work on canceling out debt that i acuired during my 5.33 years of school at america's best planned city: irvine.

I did succum to purchasing an acoustic bass guitar. Of course i have no skill whatsoever, it's fun to carry around to attract attention and gather smiles. Soon i'll be taking over a world near you. My mentor is gene we'll see how much patience he's got for me in the upcoming weeks.

but life hasn't been on hold, it's kept going, my mind just hasn't been there. now it is, things won't change, i just think i'll be a bit happier.

Wednesday, May 21, 2003

just waiting till june 6th... that's all... june 6th...

Sunday, May 11, 2003

oldness as a disease

there are times, not very frequent time, but random times when i find myself very depressed. it doesn't last long, and it isn't something that i'm worried about, it's more of a realization.

i've gone from the warm bubbly jacuzzi to the big cold swimming pool. shock. i find myslef golfing, driving around saying stuff like "well that's just a beautiful house right there" and sleeping early. i've always gone fishing, but lately it's only the more lavish style of fishing, not the dirty, outdoors-ish type that requires climbing fences, breaking tresspassing laws, and steep cliffs. waking up early has already been ingrained in my system and sleeping early is a result as well.

why do i get depressed? because this is what my life has come to? no i enjoy the 7am start time and the morning tea while checking my email. i look forward to company golf tournaments and i really enjoy the paycheck part ot joining 'the real world'.

the spurt of depression comes from those memories that i made in college when i really tested my boundaries. when i desired something and searched out to find it. i especially miss raves. good raves. october 13 1998, saturday night... that night started it all. my first rave. i recall that it was actually holloween that night. i got all dressed up, my friends did too.. we didn't know what we were getting into. but we wanted to find out

so off to downtown LA and a new lifestyle.

it's sad that the life of a raver is so short. raves depend on drugs, and therefore depend on drugs... sooo good for sooo short, and never again quite as good as before.

there were days that i'd wake up, knowing that i'm going to a rave that night, and just be excited, have a gleaming glow about me and all that i encountered that day would be well since i had a great night to look forward to. that night the adventure would start, finding the rave, finding friends, finding everything we needed to find in order to pull as much as we could from the night. we'd dance, we'd talk, we'd skip, we'd just wander through a sea of kids dressed to their own imagination's desire, meeting old friends, making new friends.

i remember what fond memories i had of these times. and i remember the feeling that i had when i was right in the middle of having 'the greatest time ever' and now i am depressed for two reasons. first of all, if i could go find such a place, if it existed today, i know i would not enjoy it, i would desire something from the pool, not the jacuzzi. i've moved on, rather been pushed along by father time, lord knows people try to stay as long as they can, but eventually are deemed "that old guy at the party"

life after the jacuzzi is good, i'm going to swim in the pool till the water becomes comfortable. which it will, it's just that i'm still tingling from the shock of jumping in from the jacuzzi...

what's next?

the sauna? back to warm i hope, lots of warm in a small place seems to be what i get along with best.

Thursday, May 8, 2003

Blog 5/7/03

my very own 1bedroom appt.

ameer's current life's update:

soon, very soon i'll be moving into my own one bedroom appt. *sigh* i looked at one that was right by lakewood mall... Only problem was that there was no parking spaces available... But i think i'll go for a tour tomorrow anyhow, just to see what they got.

It's interesting, most of the people who i have talked to about getting my own place have had the same things to say. And i can see what appeals to different people.

My co workers: (30+ year old men) are commenting on being independant and not messing around w/ roomate issues and once in a while bringing girls over for some *eyebrows raising and lowering* fun.

My friends from irvine:

are just glad to have me not complaining about not having a place.

My friends from san diego: "now i'll have a place to crash!"

now MOST girls i talk to about having a place to myself immediately think about walking around naked...

It seems to be every girl's fantasy, to walk around 'in the buck'

now, what are my initial thoughts of my own place?

Playing my turntables at any time and not bothering anyone.

After talking to everyone though i now daydream about spinning while some girls *eyebrows raising and lowering* come over and walk around naked all the while my friends from san diego are crashing on the couch... I'd even stop complaining and that'd please those irvine folk.

A side note... I've gone in and joined friendster. It's most possibly the next level of the online community. I kick myself for not coming up with the idea myself. so join in and become a member, it's all about the degrees of separation.

Friday, May 2, 2003

sex vs. sexes

I think girls are smarter than guys.

In grade school the girls get better grades, are more responsible.

Boys in general are not as smart, or don't perform as well as girls do (which isn't the same thing), but after puberty girls start to realize "their place" in our society (so i'm observing, could be wrong like i always am)...

This is when they focus on being pretty, popular, and getting "the cute" boy comes into their head instead of their more natural goal oriented hard working previous lifestyle. (pre puberty)

then conversly, boys get their ideas about their "place/role" in society and start to evolve into leaders and competitive business men.

I just remember that the girls in 1st grade were way smarter than the boys... Maybe they just mature faster?

what happens between 1st grade and the real world?

not on the same subject?

Guys want to reverse the sex roles.

they are sick of being the instigator. Through history women were persued and men were persuers. But in this day of equality and "understanding" things are ready for a change.

Watching a beer commercial i saw these guys fantasize about some beautiful girls with great boobs argue about great taste vs. Less filling, they switch it up next, the guy's got a new reviesed fantasy

they flash to the girl with great boobs kicking his ass in a fountian... He loved it! Heck i would...

but that's what's interesting.

in nature, mammals similar to us just mate and it never changes. there's no futzing around with the idea... the male loafs all day, he's got a pack of girls whom he impregnates in order to keep the pack going. But he's got to instigate sex with the different girls. when he gets old, a new guy comes along and challenges him, if the new guy wins he's got that guy's women. nowadays, guys don't want to even do that. They want women to tend to all the "womenly" duties, but also be agressive and go after their men. maybe it's just the different is better mentality of the 2000's

i like agressive girls, it's hot to find a girl who knows what or who they want. most guys think that i spose. but then i also enjoy "the chase" of winning a girl over (although i've been told that sometimes i'm so smooth that i've already done that without effort) and if you believe that i've got land in florida to sell you!!