another day, another week, another year



so it's a normal thing for me to come back to san diego after putting in my full week of work in paramount. i moved to the northern la area so that i would be able to hang out there and get to enjoy that area. when instead i have spent every weekend down here in san diego??



is it because i miss my own bed, computer, the rest of my clothes, friends in san diego, and family?

yea, i admit, those are nice, but to come down every weekend! i'm like those people in college who live in the dorms but go home ever chance they get. it's pathetic!

i did go and add "Dead Aim" to my instant messenger program, nobody's online sunday at 9 so i haven't really used it yet but i've got it up and working. pretty lame, of me to do, but it's in the past i'm not going to dwell on it.



quite a lot of people have been asking me what's wrong with me? why am i so exhausted. i tell them my previous schedule and they immediately fire out their's and then proceed to prove to me that they've worked harder, slept less, and partied twice as hard as me and they're ready for the next LA marathon where as i'm some grandma with a walker.



i understand that they're just looking for my company, because that's what they enjoy, spending time with me. but if they like me then they'll realize that i'm not them, i do have a different day then they do, and i've always needed more sleep than the average peer. it's just lately that i've been this way, but i can't say anything or do anything to not get shit for it so i just take it. i don't like making plans and then cancelling them but i also don't like always saying maybe to someone until the last minute and then make my decision about what i want to do based on my feelings that day.



this is more of a vent than a blog, as far as my blog standards. but with a designated 30mins on the internet a week at my own computer it's not so easy to put down into words what it is that i want to say.



currently i'm looking forward to getting an appartment close to work, in the long beach area. a single would be nice. living with a roomate would also be nice, depending on the roomate, i'm a pretty easy going fella, but i think i'll be picky about roomates this time around. paying a lot to live somewhere isn't really my cup of tea, but if that's what it comes down to i can do it.