excited
i'm kinda excited. don't have a good reason to be so, but i am excited. maybe cause i'm so envious of ryan's web site and some day will have one of my own that's something like that one...
or mabye it's cause today was one of "those days" where everything kinda worked, nothing sucked and well i just had an overall busy as hell, yet pretty ok day.
another upper was the fact that i saw lazy dog last nite.. those guys are my current idols... why? cause i was there and they rocked the party.
it's hard to have fun sober... at least for people who don't know what they like.. that's why the get intoxicated, it brings your criticism down, along with your expectations and your attention to details... thus, why are not-funny people so funny when you're drunk?
or why is it that you can't remember your fav dj's set when you're rolling? why people always say "i love you man" when they're drunk.. why the ugly chicks get some at parties.. ~>don't know the exact answer but my point is i have something that i like so much that i don't need to be faded to enjoy it. and last nite lazy dog brought it to LA.
ok well.. this is turning into a "what i did yesterday" blog, which i have sworn on powers so high they are not to be spoken of that i would never devolve to writing.
so here's my question of the entry... why do i always write a question?
i don't know.. i guess since everything in the world has a pattern except for the number pi, and a few other exceptions.. that i also follow patterns.. and my algorithm for writing is to start out with a question and then answer it... i guess that's my style.. style and pattern are so not similar words but but such similar concepts?! weird.
so i guess i just half assed my algorithm today... whatever, i'm too busy talking to my friend carolyn on aim... she's the cutie in the blue shirt with her moms and pops
i'm so not-content with this entry being so lame, if i wasn't in such a good excited mood i'd erase it and start again tomorrow with another stupid question
Tuesday, February 26, 2002
Saturday, February 23, 2002
those ones
the words "those ones" isn't even a gramatically correct statement. so then, does that mean it doesn't exist? maybe not in the dictionary! but shmack, i just wrote it there, so if nowhere else on the planet, it exists here...
you know, i haven't looked lately but in 5th grade i thought the word ain't was a cool thing to say. my teacher always would come down on me for using it, cause she said "it wasn't in the dictionary" well then mrs. grevwhateverhenamewas it is now!!! so i was using it before it even got in there! and it wouldn't have ever gotten there if people like me didn't stop expanding the english language and the dictionary's parameters...
same with "those ones"... i could say "these" but you sound like you're saying cheese.. and make a dorky face when you say the eeese part of the word.. i much rather say "yo look at those ones" ~>nothing implied there. insead of "yo look at these"
ready for the paralell?
my life = the english language
my dictionary = the people and places around me that i've unintentionally created
"these ones" = what i wish to stride for, yet it's not accepted or looked down upon, or what people just don't see me doing
i'm inspired by so many people for so many reasons, in so many aspects.. and for some reason i hold back on learning and persuing these admired skills/qualities because i'm afraid of the mrs. grev___ s telling me that i don't know what i'm doing... i wish i could go back to 5th grade for a sec, just to tell her that i'm just ahead of my damn time and she can't hack it!!! (prolly wouldn't say that, but would think it)
it's not worth it, revenge is sweet, but not satisfying.. too much sweet gives you a tummy ache and you end up throwing it up.. revenge gets revenge. what a sick thought.
*on track again with the "those ones" .... i was trying to tell my friend how i felt about irvine, how i conquered it already... i know where things are and i've met a few people.. i've gotten what i'm going to get out of it... like when i left highschool i had a new place to go to (UCI), nobody knew me.. nobody knew how i lived, what i liked, who i was friends with since birth. i could define myself all over again...
now i'm here, defined, ready to move to the next bigger level instead of from highschool of 3,000 people to a college of 18,000, i have to go from a school of 18,000 to a city of ... well a lot!
i need to get away from the damn mrs. grev____*i forgot her damn name*s cause no matter what, till she dies, she won't use "ain't" and people like that will bring me down...
i think of her and her types of people i say to mysefl "those ones ain't ______" (you can fill in the blank there)
the words "those ones" isn't even a gramatically correct statement. so then, does that mean it doesn't exist? maybe not in the dictionary! but shmack, i just wrote it there, so if nowhere else on the planet, it exists here...
you know, i haven't looked lately but in 5th grade i thought the word ain't was a cool thing to say. my teacher always would come down on me for using it, cause she said "it wasn't in the dictionary" well then mrs. grevwhateverhenamewas it is now!!! so i was using it before it even got in there! and it wouldn't have ever gotten there if people like me didn't stop expanding the english language and the dictionary's parameters...
same with "those ones"... i could say "these" but you sound like you're saying cheese.. and make a dorky face when you say the eeese part of the word.. i much rather say "yo look at those ones" ~>nothing implied there. insead of "yo look at these"
ready for the paralell?
my life = the english language
my dictionary = the people and places around me that i've unintentionally created
"these ones" = what i wish to stride for, yet it's not accepted or looked down upon, or what people just don't see me doing
i'm inspired by so many people for so many reasons, in so many aspects.. and for some reason i hold back on learning and persuing these admired skills/qualities because i'm afraid of the mrs. grev___ s telling me that i don't know what i'm doing... i wish i could go back to 5th grade for a sec, just to tell her that i'm just ahead of my damn time and she can't hack it!!! (prolly wouldn't say that, but would think it)
it's not worth it, revenge is sweet, but not satisfying.. too much sweet gives you a tummy ache and you end up throwing it up.. revenge gets revenge. what a sick thought.
*on track again with the "those ones" .... i was trying to tell my friend how i felt about irvine, how i conquered it already... i know where things are and i've met a few people.. i've gotten what i'm going to get out of it... like when i left highschool i had a new place to go to (UCI), nobody knew me.. nobody knew how i lived, what i liked, who i was friends with since birth. i could define myself all over again...
now i'm here, defined, ready to move to the next bigger level instead of from highschool of 3,000 people to a college of 18,000, i have to go from a school of 18,000 to a city of ... well a lot!
i need to get away from the damn mrs. grev____*i forgot her damn name*s cause no matter what, till she dies, she won't use "ain't" and people like that will bring me down...
i think of her and her types of people i say to mysefl "those ones ain't ______" (you can fill in the blank there)
Wednesday, February 20, 2002
comments
i love comments
it's proof that someone's actually there listening and reading and (this is an assumption) caring! it's weird but in this lonely world... my world that is, there's a lot of good things going on and good people doing stuff... at least it feels that way when i get a comment.
ok as i just read back on that i made it sound like the entire world turns sunshiny when a comment is posted on my blog.. how about more like it's when you've met that cute girl randomly at a chaotic moment for only a moment, so she may not remember your or have interacted with you for long enough to say hi to you a week later when you're walking by... but she does. that's the feeling.
on another note, today was ditch class day... let's hope it's not chronic, i need to go to class as much as possible.
and thanks to a few good friends, i found out that it's ok to not be the best at something, but to be halfass at everything. (so i'm still a bit bitter that i'll never be the best) but you know what? i'm not even halfass at everything, i need to get working on doing more things!
nobody stop me now!
i love comments
it's proof that someone's actually there listening and reading and (this is an assumption) caring! it's weird but in this lonely world... my world that is, there's a lot of good things going on and good people doing stuff... at least it feels that way when i get a comment.
ok as i just read back on that i made it sound like the entire world turns sunshiny when a comment is posted on my blog.. how about more like it's when you've met that cute girl randomly at a chaotic moment for only a moment, so she may not remember your or have interacted with you for long enough to say hi to you a week later when you're walking by... but she does. that's the feeling.
on another note, today was ditch class day... let's hope it's not chronic, i need to go to class as much as possible.
and thanks to a few good friends, i found out that it's ok to not be the best at something, but to be halfass at everything. (so i'm still a bit bitter that i'll never be the best) but you know what? i'm not even halfass at everything, i need to get working on doing more things!
nobody stop me now!
Tuesday, February 19, 2002
the best
i'm looking to my blog for support.
writing things down always helps me.
today i realized something about myself. how i'm NOT the best. i got this list of things a mile long that i've been thinking of that i do and i compete in and that i study... yet i'm not the best, never was, don't know if i ever will be?
examples of what i'm talking about are:
i'm not the best student- never have been anything close to that, or the best friend-i can never remember bdays and i'm sometimes too selfish, i'm so not the best lover-between my low self esteem and my inability to read my own emotions it's a disaster, i'm not the best computer guy- no matter how much i learn, i can't do things that others do, i'm not the best athlete-i competed up thru highschool in multiple sports... but as i look back i was just right in the middle never the best, or worst... just run of the mill
i'm not the best son-my parents have treated me better than most of my friend's parents... they're proud of me but there's so much area for me to improve on, i'm not the best anything... there's so many things more that i'd love to just be the best at. the best as far as my world is concerned, not the entire world... everything i can think of that i do or am interested in, there's someone that jutts into my mind as being better than me at it. hong's a better fisher that me, jowilla know's more music than me, sirimal knows more about cars than me, luis knows more about computers than me, james skateboards better than me, gene's knows more about fishtanks than me, kieron has better social skills than me, kim knows more website stuff than me, even efrain he's a better staffer than me...
i've always wanted to be the best at something. the best at what i do. i have to find a passion for something. so far i have no passion... there's things that i love and that i very much enjoy.. but there's nothing that i can't stop thinking about 24hrs a day... that's why i'm not the best at anything... i'm the worst at a few things. i should be the best at at-least one thing.
i'm not even the best at making myself feel bad... (no names here)
i'm looking to my blog for support.
writing things down always helps me.
today i realized something about myself. how i'm NOT the best. i got this list of things a mile long that i've been thinking of that i do and i compete in and that i study... yet i'm not the best, never was, don't know if i ever will be?
examples of what i'm talking about are:
i'm not the best student- never have been anything close to that, or the best friend-i can never remember bdays and i'm sometimes too selfish, i'm so not the best lover-between my low self esteem and my inability to read my own emotions it's a disaster, i'm not the best computer guy- no matter how much i learn, i can't do things that others do, i'm not the best athlete-i competed up thru highschool in multiple sports... but as i look back i was just right in the middle never the best, or worst... just run of the mill
i'm not the best son-my parents have treated me better than most of my friend's parents... they're proud of me but there's so much area for me to improve on, i'm not the best anything... there's so many things more that i'd love to just be the best at. the best as far as my world is concerned, not the entire world... everything i can think of that i do or am interested in, there's someone that jutts into my mind as being better than me at it. hong's a better fisher that me, jowilla know's more music than me, sirimal knows more about cars than me, luis knows more about computers than me, james skateboards better than me, gene's knows more about fishtanks than me, kieron has better social skills than me, kim knows more website stuff than me, even efrain he's a better staffer than me...
i've always wanted to be the best at something. the best at what i do. i have to find a passion for something. so far i have no passion... there's things that i love and that i very much enjoy.. but there's nothing that i can't stop thinking about 24hrs a day... that's why i'm not the best at anything... i'm the worst at a few things. i should be the best at at-least one thing.
i'm not even the best at making myself feel bad... (no names here)
i feel like writing.
me feeling like writing is like when you go to a concert and see your fav band play... you want to go home and play like they do! although when you DO go home and try, your attept is shitty and being discourage causes you to quit and focus attention onto other things ie sex, beer, tv... (is there anything else?)
no really, but you know what i mean.
i feel my writing isn't what it could be, i try to only guage things with respect to my goals, and my potentials. which i feel haven't been reached... i don't think they ever will be reached though, cause as my goals always change with respect to my potential, which grows as time increases... it's like an inevitable loss for me.. but what i'm ultimatly hoping is that somehow by persuing this plan i'll eventually end up a good writer, with repsect to everyone else this time though...
seems pretty silly. i don't take writing classes. i don't enjoy reading books.
how do i suppose i'll get any better, what runner gets faster mile times by never running? will i keep on this track of only writing occasional emails, blog entries, and aim sentence fragments and aspire to become a decent writer? maybe i should re-think my gameplan?
besides that? do you guys who read/write blogs think about what you're going to write when you're sitting idle or doing something that requires as much thinking as walking or driving? i do.
i think my theme for this blog is to understand what it is i don't know. "you always have to know what you don't know" -my dad
like whenever i have a question, or an idea that i don't quite understand, i post it here and try to answer it. that's why i guess the title here is 'am i wrong? (to hunger)' cause i am hungry! ~> for information
mmmm... information, knowledge
me feeling like writing is like when you go to a concert and see your fav band play... you want to go home and play like they do! although when you DO go home and try, your attept is shitty and being discourage causes you to quit and focus attention onto other things ie sex, beer, tv... (is there anything else?)
no really, but you know what i mean.
i feel my writing isn't what it could be, i try to only guage things with respect to my goals, and my potentials. which i feel haven't been reached... i don't think they ever will be reached though, cause as my goals always change with respect to my potential, which grows as time increases... it's like an inevitable loss for me.. but what i'm ultimatly hoping is that somehow by persuing this plan i'll eventually end up a good writer, with repsect to everyone else this time though...
seems pretty silly. i don't take writing classes. i don't enjoy reading books.
how do i suppose i'll get any better, what runner gets faster mile times by never running? will i keep on this track of only writing occasional emails, blog entries, and aim sentence fragments and aspire to become a decent writer? maybe i should re-think my gameplan?
besides that? do you guys who read/write blogs think about what you're going to write when you're sitting idle or doing something that requires as much thinking as walking or driving? i do.
i think my theme for this blog is to understand what it is i don't know. "you always have to know what you don't know" -my dad
like whenever i have a question, or an idea that i don't quite understand, i post it here and try to answer it. that's why i guess the title here is 'am i wrong? (to hunger)' cause i am hungry! ~> for information
mmmm... information, knowledge
this is great!
someone did a search for "see girls while I am chatting with them" and my site was number 2 on the list! was it something i said?
second of all my blog alter ego ameer, somehow is the second match found on google when (site:blogspot.com "b cup" OR "c cup" OR "d cup" OR "dd cup) is entered...
are us ameers just asking for it? no, we're wild like that.
someone did a search for "see girls while I am chatting with them" and my site was number 2 on the list! was it something i said?
second of all my blog alter ego ameer, somehow is the second match found on google when (site:blogspot.com "b cup" OR "c cup" OR "d cup" OR "dd cup) is entered...
are us ameers just asking for it? no, we're wild like that.
Monday, February 18, 2002
problems blogging
i'm having problems blogging. this is the third time i've tried to do a feb 18th entry. and damnit, this time i'm going to not click a link to take me off this page, erasing the entry, or have someone come over and say f*ck it and close the window. i need to do this for all of the blogs that i read!
(i've noticed that nobody's blog is updated) i'm going to be the one to pioneer this action ~> or maybe it's that everyone went to vegas or snowboarding and i'm sitting here like an ass with nothing to do on a day off. NO WAIT! i have to finish my pinewood derby car! i honestly sound like more of a loser than i am, it's for a cash prize competition, not boyscouts!
ok i've been plagued with horrible blog entries for the last few weeks...
let's try to change that!
ok guys, girls too i guess...
lets say there's someone kinda interesting that you know of but have never met before and would like to. then all of a sudden she wakes you up while you're sleeping in your own bed... and she's naked!
some guys get all the luck
there's a few girls like that that i'd like to meet, wonder how i'd react. i thought it was funny.
so with that interesting thought provoking idea i'm off to work on my pinewood derby car!!! whoo hooo!
i'm having problems blogging. this is the third time i've tried to do a feb 18th entry. and damnit, this time i'm going to not click a link to take me off this page, erasing the entry, or have someone come over and say f*ck it and close the window. i need to do this for all of the blogs that i read!
(i've noticed that nobody's blog is updated) i'm going to be the one to pioneer this action ~> or maybe it's that everyone went to vegas or snowboarding and i'm sitting here like an ass with nothing to do on a day off. NO WAIT! i have to finish my pinewood derby car! i honestly sound like more of a loser than i am, it's for a cash prize competition, not boyscouts!
ok i've been plagued with horrible blog entries for the last few weeks...
let's try to change that!
ok guys, girls too i guess...
lets say there's someone kinda interesting that you know of but have never met before and would like to. then all of a sudden she wakes you up while you're sleeping in your own bed... and she's naked!
some guys get all the luck
there's a few girls like that that i'd like to meet, wonder how i'd react. i thought it was funny.
so with that interesting thought provoking idea i'm off to work on my pinewood derby car!!! whoo hooo!
Friday, February 15, 2002
how depressing, after i posted this last "i hang out with cute girls but don't know it" post... my roomate comes home and show off his new vday presents, then tells me of his flawless day...
then he says "hey you're sick?!" and i realize that i've got a fever!
just when you don't think you can go downhill anymore. you hit a pothole
then he says "hey you're sick?!" and i realize that i've got a fever!
just when you don't think you can go downhill anymore. you hit a pothole
cute girls
today was valentine's day. i just woke up at 12:30am the day after vday, but that's not the point, i was in disposed or whatever they say.
but yea. it's funny, actually it's not that funny. but today i was at the pub with what one would say many cute girls! i mean if someone were to come from somewhere and know nobody but me, and see me hanging out with the people i was hanging out with they'd think that i was hanging out with lots of hella cute, nice girls rite. but then from my perspective, i was just hanging out with some friends. not hot chicks. so i guess what gets me excited is new faces, that are hot chicks. so like maybe i have the deepak syndrome. ( we were making fun of my friend deepak for this ) but i think maybe i like girls that are fictional, or that are in no way gettable <~ is that a word?
why would i do such a thing? cause! to say i'm hunting but never have to take a shot. for some it's eaiser to just "not take a shot". personally i don't categorize myself in that rank, but if i were a third person tonite i would have.
anyhow, alcohaul's promoting sleep rite now. i'll submit to that one 9 times out of 10
today was valentine's day. i just woke up at 12:30am the day after vday, but that's not the point, i was in disposed or whatever they say.
but yea. it's funny, actually it's not that funny. but today i was at the pub with what one would say many cute girls! i mean if someone were to come from somewhere and know nobody but me, and see me hanging out with the people i was hanging out with they'd think that i was hanging out with lots of hella cute, nice girls rite. but then from my perspective, i was just hanging out with some friends. not hot chicks. so i guess what gets me excited is new faces, that are hot chicks. so like maybe i have the deepak syndrome. ( we were making fun of my friend deepak for this ) but i think maybe i like girls that are fictional, or that are in no way gettable <~ is that a word?
why would i do such a thing? cause! to say i'm hunting but never have to take a shot. for some it's eaiser to just "not take a shot". personally i don't categorize myself in that rank, but if i were a third person tonite i would have.
anyhow, alcohaul's promoting sleep rite now. i'll submit to that one 9 times out of 10
Wednesday, February 13, 2002
just took my last midterm, of the quarter that is. i only had two, but this one was 2 grueling hours.
ok so one thing that really bothers me is the conversation killer you get when you ask someone :
what kind of music do you listen to?
and the jackass you asked replys with "everything" or even worse "everything except country" <~ those people have never listened to any country so the assume it's bad.
it's such a turn off in so many ways.. ggrrrrr! everything doesn't mean everything that mtv plays, cause there's so much more than that, that's just for starters... i ask that question to promote a conversation.. looking for some similar interests maybe? similar dislikes? so then when i say ok elaborate on everything... the answer to that is also the same! hip-hop, r&b, and rock those three types are hardly 'everything' if anything groups like linkin park and limp biscuit have combined those three or two of the three to make one gonera.
gimme a break, i'm a music critic. i can be! everyone's given the right to and well i'm excercizing my right to. weird thing is, if i saw someone i didn't know doing exactly what im doing, i'd prolly dislike them from the start. so it's ironic like that isn't it?
oh well. there's more i have to learn ~> now that i've got school out of the way for a bit
ok so one thing that really bothers me is the conversation killer you get when you ask someone :
what kind of music do you listen to?
and the jackass you asked replys with "everything" or even worse "everything except country" <~ those people have never listened to any country so the assume it's bad.
it's such a turn off in so many ways.. ggrrrrr! everything doesn't mean everything that mtv plays, cause there's so much more than that, that's just for starters... i ask that question to promote a conversation.. looking for some similar interests maybe? similar dislikes? so then when i say ok elaborate on everything... the answer to that is also the same! hip-hop, r&b, and rock those three types are hardly 'everything' if anything groups like linkin park and limp biscuit have combined those three or two of the three to make one gonera.
gimme a break, i'm a music critic. i can be! everyone's given the right to and well i'm excercizing my right to. weird thing is, if i saw someone i didn't know doing exactly what im doing, i'd prolly dislike them from the start. so it's ironic like that isn't it?
oh well. there's more i have to learn ~> now that i've got school out of the way for a bit
Monday, February 11, 2002
i got this test. tomorrow.
it's on digital control systems... sounds hella cool hu? like i'd be playing with hi-tech toys that wow people. wrong, it's math.
straight math, that's it. math, with no numbers. what could be less exciting? (A:reading this!)
anyhow. so i'm sick of being at this address. i want to move my blog to www.high-entropy.com i mean i'd just be a better person. but i'm lazy, proving that i'm not that better person i strive to be.
i also don't care much for taking this test. my teacher said the test will not cover the entire 2hrs, he's going to stop it at like 1 1/2 hrs and then lecture! great!
if my sob stories don't upset you, then what will upset you is the fact that you ventured onto my blog site to read what i just posted.
~> oh yea. thursday is valentine's day. i'm thinking of maybe doing something nice for myself. i don't have any ideas... maybe going record shopping would be nice, i need to do some of that, it's overwhelming how many artists are out there and have been out there that i've never heard of? i feel like a minnow in the ocean, during the jurassic period!
ok i'm getting nerdy, must be time for bed
it's on digital control systems... sounds hella cool hu? like i'd be playing with hi-tech toys that wow people. wrong, it's math.
straight math, that's it. math, with no numbers. what could be less exciting? (A:reading this!)
anyhow. so i'm sick of being at this address. i want to move my blog to www.high-entropy.com i mean i'd just be a better person. but i'm lazy, proving that i'm not that better person i strive to be.
i also don't care much for taking this test. my teacher said the test will not cover the entire 2hrs, he's going to stop it at like 1 1/2 hrs and then lecture! great!
if my sob stories don't upset you, then what will upset you is the fact that you ventured onto my blog site to read what i just posted.
~> oh yea. thursday is valentine's day. i'm thinking of maybe doing something nice for myself. i don't have any ideas... maybe going record shopping would be nice, i need to do some of that, it's overwhelming how many artists are out there and have been out there that i've never heard of? i feel like a minnow in the ocean, during the jurassic period!
ok i'm getting nerdy, must be time for bed
Saturday, February 9, 2002
don't get me wrong. i LOVE my computer.
but sitting on it for an entire friday night... just not my style ~> or IS it?
i could be doing something productive (pro meaning before, ductive meaning doing something? always pondered that..)
cleaning my room, working on learning something ie dreamweaver, adobe photoshop, html... or maybe working on my resume.. or a powerpoint presentation to send to stupid companies in hopes that they would want an intern for the summer...
so many "i could"'s
could have been out with hot chicks too... (have to meet them first)
so i guess there's alot of things i could have done, but instead i decided to watch a downloaded bootleg by myself.
if more people read this i think i'd put more effort into making it something worthwhile too.. but hey. i look back on these entries once in a while i guess i can say that they're for me, i let everyone else just take a peek
but sitting on it for an entire friday night... just not my style ~> or IS it?
i could be doing something productive (pro meaning before, ductive meaning doing something? always pondered that..)
cleaning my room, working on learning something ie dreamweaver, adobe photoshop, html... or maybe working on my resume.. or a powerpoint presentation to send to stupid companies in hopes that they would want an intern for the summer...
so many "i could"'s
could have been out with hot chicks too... (have to meet them first)
so i guess there's alot of things i could have done, but instead i decided to watch a downloaded bootleg by myself.
if more people read this i think i'd put more effort into making it something worthwhile too.. but hey. i look back on these entries once in a while i guess i can say that they're for me, i let everyone else just take a peek
Thursday, February 7, 2002
well i'm here...
at my terminal, funny how people refer to computers as terminals. i mean if i was terminated that'd be a bad thing (at least to me) and yet we call computers terminals... maybe they just call them that at works and stuff cause when you are at work on a computer, you feel like you're at a terminal...
terminal = stop, end
ha.
that just got me. so yea, i was reading ameer's blog.... funny when i say that. i can only imagine how people like jason, chris, eric, david... etc feel when they've got friends with similar names, cause i only know a few people named amir, much less ameer.
i read his blog and i like his thoughts, you should check him out i mean anyone else named ameer has GOT to be hella cool.. shit look at the comment he left for me...
"
I must say that Im beyond happy to know that there are at least two ameers roaming free on the internet. We should get together and form some sort of club. We could call it "Ameers Anonymous" or just "AA" for short. Wait, I think that ones already taken. Its just as well. Most ameer's end up destitute alcoholics anyway. I look forward to reading your blog. I ll be adding you to my links section if for no other reason than to see our beautiful name shamelessly plastered on my site. Long live us.
Sincerely,
A (me)ER.
"
haha i like him already! and i've only read a few of his days and he even backed me up on this person who's set on me being: indian, smelly, and working at a 7-11.... i'm neither, (well smelly sometimes, but i shower daily!)
anyhow, i went to see gene ferris. he was ok, it's cool when you realize the tracks that he's playing, he even played balmes! the ian pooley remix with esthero! whom i MET and got her signature! whoopie
anyhow, my day has been almost as boring as this useless blog entry, my week has actually. it's what i make of it. till then it'll still be boring...
at my terminal, funny how people refer to computers as terminals. i mean if i was terminated that'd be a bad thing (at least to me) and yet we call computers terminals... maybe they just call them that at works and stuff cause when you are at work on a computer, you feel like you're at a terminal...
terminal = stop, end
ha.
that just got me. so yea, i was reading ameer's blog.... funny when i say that. i can only imagine how people like jason, chris, eric, david... etc feel when they've got friends with similar names, cause i only know a few people named amir, much less ameer.
i read his blog and i like his thoughts, you should check him out i mean anyone else named ameer has GOT to be hella cool.. shit look at the comment he left for me...
"
I must say that Im beyond happy to know that there are at least two ameers roaming free on the internet. We should get together and form some sort of club. We could call it "Ameers Anonymous" or just "AA" for short. Wait, I think that ones already taken. Its just as well. Most ameer's end up destitute alcoholics anyway. I look forward to reading your blog. I ll be adding you to my links section if for no other reason than to see our beautiful name shamelessly plastered on my site. Long live us.
Sincerely,
A (me)ER.
"
haha i like him already! and i've only read a few of his days and he even backed me up on this person who's set on me being: indian, smelly, and working at a 7-11.... i'm neither, (well smelly sometimes, but i shower daily!)
anyhow, i went to see gene ferris. he was ok, it's cool when you realize the tracks that he's playing, he even played balmes! the ian pooley remix with esthero! whom i MET and got her signature! whoopie
anyhow, my day has been almost as boring as this useless blog entry, my week has actually. it's what i make of it. till then it'll still be boring...
Tuesday, February 5, 2002
hobbies
that's what it is.
hobbies, such a child word. oooh i got a hobbie meeting today, is that your hobbie? the word hobby sounds so lame.
BUT, people with hobbies are the interesting ones. hobbies keep us going. i often equate people to animals of lower intelligence. (i guess that's kinda a result of mathematics, for example the fraction 28 / 32 is very complex and hard to comprehend all that's going on cause there's 32 divisions and only 28 are full, it takes a bit of concentration for something like that, but if you simplify it to 7 / 8, it's a bit eaiser to understand and see.. simplification)
so i try to simplify people's personalities to animal's personalities.
for example those dogs that are always up to something, doing something mischivious, getting all into trouble, hopping fences, chasing cars... those are the interesting dogs, the kind that i like.
then there's the dogs that hover by their master 24/7, they even sit at the door when the master's gone waiting for them to come back! <~ i know A LOT of people who go down to that kind of dog when i simplify them.
guess i'm trying to say that hobbies are what make us different, those are what define personality, what the hell does a strong personality mean? well it's gotta do something with hobbies, math and dogs if you ask me!
that's what it is.
hobbies, such a child word. oooh i got a hobbie meeting today, is that your hobbie? the word hobby sounds so lame.
BUT, people with hobbies are the interesting ones. hobbies keep us going. i often equate people to animals of lower intelligence. (i guess that's kinda a result of mathematics, for example the fraction 28 / 32 is very complex and hard to comprehend all that's going on cause there's 32 divisions and only 28 are full, it takes a bit of concentration for something like that, but if you simplify it to 7 / 8, it's a bit eaiser to understand and see.. simplification)
so i try to simplify people's personalities to animal's personalities.
for example those dogs that are always up to something, doing something mischivious, getting all into trouble, hopping fences, chasing cars... those are the interesting dogs, the kind that i like.
then there's the dogs that hover by their master 24/7, they even sit at the door when the master's gone waiting for them to come back! <~ i know A LOT of people who go down to that kind of dog when i simplify them.
guess i'm trying to say that hobbies are what make us different, those are what define personality, what the hell does a strong personality mean? well it's gotta do something with hobbies, math and dogs if you ask me!
~> just finised watching the anime series angelic layer... that was prolly the hardest series for me to find so far, it was released in april (so was i) but it was released 2001, where as i'm from 79
so it's confirmed, i got another comment from the unknown surfer! that means that my site is interesting enuf to actually remember and come back to!
a somewhat satisfying feeling...
i'd much rather someone who doesn't hate indian people, but as of now, beggers can't be choosers.
remember those elementary class excercises when you had to find what's wrong with this sentence, i used to always hate those.. but i think that i learned the few common mistakes among 5th grade english students... we'll here's an example of one:
"as long as your indian, you belong in 7/11 selling slurpees"
down to business, today was my spop interview...
yea i'm trying out to do this thing again for the 3rd year, what can i say. i think my intervew was ok, could have been better, but was ok.
it was at 8am, and i had stupid coffee the night b4 so i couldn't sleep. i'm soo suseptible to coffee.. don't know why!
whatever.
geez, i thought of things to say here, but forgot them while indulging myself in cute girls fighting with dolls in a stadium. -refer to angelic layer for more details
so it's confirmed, i got another comment from the unknown surfer! that means that my site is interesting enuf to actually remember and come back to!
a somewhat satisfying feeling...
i'd much rather someone who doesn't hate indian people, but as of now, beggers can't be choosers.
remember those elementary class excercises when you had to find what's wrong with this sentence, i used to always hate those.. but i think that i learned the few common mistakes among 5th grade english students... we'll here's an example of one:
"as long as your indian, you belong in 7/11 selling slurpees"
down to business, today was my spop interview...
yea i'm trying out to do this thing again for the 3rd year, what can i say. i think my intervew was ok, could have been better, but was ok.
it was at 8am, and i had stupid coffee the night b4 so i couldn't sleep. i'm soo suseptible to coffee.. don't know why!
whatever.
geez, i thought of things to say here, but forgot them while indulging myself in cute girls fighting with dolls in a stadium. -refer to angelic layer for more details
Monday, February 4, 2002
HEY!!!
under sat feb 02 someone wrote "get back to your kwiki mart and sell some more slurpees!" i hope it's someone i don't know!!! that surfed on! how cool would that be?!?! it'd be like my first documented proof that someone actually found and read my site!
(even though it's a put down, i can see it's positivities)
and to mr. 7eleven, indian people are supposedly the stereotype for running 7-11's... i'm half white half persian. just fyi! keep visiting here though!!
under sat feb 02 someone wrote "get back to your kwiki mart and sell some more slurpees!" i hope it's someone i don't know!!! that surfed on! how cool would that be?!?! it'd be like my first documented proof that someone actually found and read my site!
(even though it's a put down, i can see it's positivities)
and to mr. 7eleven, indian people are supposedly the stereotype for running 7-11's... i'm half white half persian. just fyi! keep visiting here though!!
ok so i'm pretty excited.
i just burned every episode of angelic layer on 7 cd's!!!! ~> excitement comes from two different reasons, first of all my computer works and it was able to burn at 20x, i'm still afraid to push it to it's 24x limit!! the second is cause watching angelic layer makes me happy, puts me in a good mood.
i still have to watch the last 7 episodes though
i wrote a limerik today with the aid of the captian jo.
i always pretend not to be
the person that you'd like to see
i don't hide my face
i create my own place
somehow you know i'm not me.
*please don't analyze this, cause i just wrote it without thinking of what it actually "says" just sounded a bit deep and contradictory. but i was really excited that she was semi-impressed by it, i mean she IS an english major, and I am an incompitent-writer aka engineer
so today i was leaving my appt, and i see this girl carrying some big bags of stuff, like she had done the whole, go home on the weekend deal and brought back hella stuff. she was walking all like it was heavy and i just ignored her. i didn't ask to help, which i later thought that i should have done.
but in order to make myself feel better i reasoned why i shouldn't have helped her...
see it's hard to be nice to a girl and but define that you're doing what you're doing to be nice, without offending her. ex: hi there, i have no intrest in you whatsoever, but do you need help? <~can't do that! but what if you say do you need help, she's thinking this guy just wants some ass...
and well the better looking the girl is the more of a predicament you're putting yourself into, cause there's a huge chance that she's been hit on by more sleezeballs and has less patience with some new guy acting like a gentleman just because he wants to help someone out.
"double edged sword"
"cuts both ways"
"you're damned if you do, you're damned if you don't. "
women can't live with em, can't live without em"
"if i had a nickel for everytime"
i just burned every episode of angelic layer on 7 cd's!!!! ~> excitement comes from two different reasons, first of all my computer works and it was able to burn at 20x, i'm still afraid to push it to it's 24x limit!! the second is cause watching angelic layer makes me happy, puts me in a good mood.
i still have to watch the last 7 episodes though
i wrote a limerik today with the aid of the captian jo.
i always pretend not to be
the person that you'd like to see
i don't hide my face
i create my own place
somehow you know i'm not me.
*please don't analyze this, cause i just wrote it without thinking of what it actually "says" just sounded a bit deep and contradictory. but i was really excited that she was semi-impressed by it, i mean she IS an english major, and I am an incompitent-writer aka engineer
so today i was leaving my appt, and i see this girl carrying some big bags of stuff, like she had done the whole, go home on the weekend deal and brought back hella stuff. she was walking all like it was heavy and i just ignored her. i didn't ask to help, which i later thought that i should have done.
but in order to make myself feel better i reasoned why i shouldn't have helped her...
see it's hard to be nice to a girl and but define that you're doing what you're doing to be nice, without offending her. ex: hi there, i have no intrest in you whatsoever, but do you need help? <~can't do that! but what if you say do you need help, she's thinking this guy just wants some ass...
and well the better looking the girl is the more of a predicament you're putting yourself into, cause there's a huge chance that she's been hit on by more sleezeballs and has less patience with some new guy acting like a gentleman just because he wants to help someone out.
"double edged sword"
"cuts both ways"
"you're damned if you do, you're damned if you don't. "
women can't live with em, can't live without em"
"if i had a nickel for everytime"
Saturday, February 2, 2002
home late
that's a popular theme for me these days.... just got back from sd, it's 4:17 am i have work at 10am, do math, figure not much time to sleep, which is essential for me these days as well.
nancy's 23, hong's unemployed... what else is new?
well i tell you, i turned in my app for spop. i had doubts about it, but shit i'm a sucker.
i can tell that when i have a daugher (cause i will have one some day) i'm gonna have to try REALLY hard to say no to her, i'm a softy.
note: getting a daugher means getting a girl, getting a girl means getting a job. i have neither, so this thought is really long term!
back to my "thought of the day" i mean i am soft, i can't be mad or say no, it brings me too much personal satisfaction to see a smile on someone's face knowing that i'm responsible for it. this proves to sometimes NOT be a good thing
like today. tonite i mean, i was at eric's house with tiff and minh... and before this i wasn't really on good terms with either, but!
when i saw eric, and tiff, i was just happy to see them. aside from all past stuff and present stuff too.. i've had good times with them before, and with that in mind i can't hold a grudge since i'm sure i'll have good times with them later.
minh on the other hand i've gone thru this schedule a few times, and well i'm soft, but not a complete idiot *comments should not correct me on this statement* and i've learned.... fire will burn you no matter when you touch it, so just DON'T TOUCH IT
that's a popular theme for me these days.... just got back from sd, it's 4:17 am i have work at 10am, do math, figure not much time to sleep, which is essential for me these days as well.
nancy's 23, hong's unemployed... what else is new?
well i tell you, i turned in my app for spop. i had doubts about it, but shit i'm a sucker.
i can tell that when i have a daugher (cause i will have one some day) i'm gonna have to try REALLY hard to say no to her, i'm a softy.
note: getting a daugher means getting a girl, getting a girl means getting a job. i have neither, so this thought is really long term!
back to my "thought of the day" i mean i am soft, i can't be mad or say no, it brings me too much personal satisfaction to see a smile on someone's face knowing that i'm responsible for it. this proves to sometimes NOT be a good thing
like today. tonite i mean, i was at eric's house with tiff and minh... and before this i wasn't really on good terms with either, but!
when i saw eric, and tiff, i was just happy to see them. aside from all past stuff and present stuff too.. i've had good times with them before, and with that in mind i can't hold a grudge since i'm sure i'll have good times with them later.
minh on the other hand i've gone thru this schedule a few times, and well i'm soft, but not a complete idiot *comments should not correct me on this statement* and i've learned.... fire will burn you no matter when you touch it, so just DON'T TOUCH IT
Friday, February 1, 2002
home late nite from the club
poppa bear aka rozanno and danielle turned 22 and 21 respectively tonite, it was good stuff. congrads, rock bottom was a good venue for a good time....
anyhow. so i was studying with kim today. it's weird, how do you feel when your ex-girlfriend likes someone else...?
i mean, or i'm asking, why is it weird to think that other people can like multiple people? i like a number of girls, or have. yet i can't reason in my head that other people can do the same thing...
i think that i'm happy that she's happy with someone (not that they're together) but i could see that she was infactuated with him. but it's just something that we're kinda taught through growing up that it's not ok.
i don't want her back, i don't want her to not date, yet when i see her giving him more attention than me i'm like, hey, where's my attention, you used to give it to me!
well i consider myself independant and a loner, cause i can deal with stuff like that, but i do have the emotions and can see why other people do rash things and say stuff...
anyhow. that's that,
don't have any rhetorical questions or deep ponderings to discuss.. maybe i'll meet a muse soon, a cute one, who likes house music and computers and fish and anime and waterbeds and mexican food and persian food and doing random things at random hours with random people in random situations....
now i'm just wishing
poppa bear aka rozanno and danielle turned 22 and 21 respectively tonite, it was good stuff. congrads, rock bottom was a good venue for a good time....
anyhow. so i was studying with kim today. it's weird, how do you feel when your ex-girlfriend likes someone else...?
i mean, or i'm asking, why is it weird to think that other people can like multiple people? i like a number of girls, or have. yet i can't reason in my head that other people can do the same thing...
i think that i'm happy that she's happy with someone (not that they're together) but i could see that she was infactuated with him. but it's just something that we're kinda taught through growing up that it's not ok.
i don't want her back, i don't want her to not date, yet when i see her giving him more attention than me i'm like, hey, where's my attention, you used to give it to me!
well i consider myself independant and a loner, cause i can deal with stuff like that, but i do have the emotions and can see why other people do rash things and say stuff...
anyhow. that's that,
don't have any rhetorical questions or deep ponderings to discuss.. maybe i'll meet a muse soon, a cute one, who likes house music and computers and fish and anime and waterbeds and mexican food and persian food and doing random things at random hours with random people in random situations....
now i'm just wishing
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