ok well that last post was wack, i just got my comment things up and i'm not sure how they work... so anyone who ever reads this at least leave a comment, since i don't have a counter or the knowledge to put one up, i'd love it if you'd give me some feedback... or anything, something.. as you can see i have no pride and am not too proud to beg.

pathetic.

anyhow, i went to that vibe afterparty, i was dancing with like 5 girls at once. tell your friends i was the man for a good 2 mins. if only the kids who laughed at me in high school could seen me now!

or maybe i was hallucinating.

either way. im tired, it's 3:00am. i missed a quiz today. cause i was out too late last nite studying!!!! what a piece,

lastly, check out my web site that's my new baby!

testing comments



yo i got comments! i'm a pimp... kinda, ok i'm more a dork than anything, but shit, i'm happy!

my brother posted this on his diary so i decided to copy him! it's ok he's copied me once or twice.. i'm not sure when, but he has to have!!!



1. what's the one thing you wish you could do but can't?

fish everyday, dance everynite, meet exciting people inbetween, all cause i invented something that everyone everwhere needs/uses, yet not be famous for it so i could enjoy myself.



2. What is your ideal marriage location?

somewhere with a fishtank, a computer, and a car race... wait that's my bedroom?!



3. Which musical instrument do you wish you could play?

turntables..technics sl-1200 MkII



4. What's your favorite day of the week, and why?

none. they're all horrible at one point or another



5. Favorite fabric(s)?



6. Something you love and hate

attention, especially from cute girls



7. What kind of bedding do you use?

two comforters, 4 pillows, and a queen sized watermatress



8. What kind of soap do you use?

dial anti-bacterial, it's the piercer's choice



9. Do you tell your friends about your sex life?

ha! that's assuming that i have a sex life



10. What's the one language you want to learn?

even if you learn korean to impress a korean girl, you won't have a sex life... shoulda taken japanese so i could understand anime at least



11. How do you eat an apple?

usually with my mouth, but i twist the stem and everytwist say a letter, whatever letter it breaks on is your wife's name's first letter, so i hear



12. What do you order at a bar?

alcohaul in all forms, sizes, prices, and colors



13. Can you count to 13?

nope, just to 8. cause house music is in 4/4 time and varies ever 8 measures



14. Have you ever pierced your body parts?

both traguses... if that's how you spell it



15. Do you have tattoos?

nope, almost passed out due to the traguses



16. Would you ever admit to having done plastic surgery of any kind if confronted?

i got no shame.



17. What's one of the "funniest" things you've ever done:

set the smoke alarm off cause i burnt spam, the whole dorm woke up cause it was 6am, i laughed while the cops/firemen came.. and i ate the spam



18. Do you drive stick?

yups



19. What's one trait you hate in a person?

self pitty... GROW UP!



20. What's the one trait you need in a person?

flexibility (not physical)



21. What kind of watch(es) do you wear?

sieko silvery flashy, and the wave! powerpuff girls c-watch (talks and plays music)



22. Most frivolous purchase?

almost all of my posetions



23. Do you consider yourself materialistic?

i consider myslef a "stuff" maniac



24. What do you cook the best?

mac and cheese with spam



25. Favorite writing instrument?

OoOo.. i'm a writing instrument freak!! my pencil box is full of goodies i can't elaborate here, not enuf room



26. Do you prefer to stand out or blend in?

stand out. blending in is for dj's



27. Do you have anything monogrammed?

how do you monogram something



28. Would you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex?

only if i looked hot!



29. What's one car you will never buy?

any buick.. the name just says it all



30. Have you ever done drugs?

yea, i'm an antihistamine addict, not by choice



31. What kind of books do you like to read?

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH... you don't even know me



32. If you won the lottery, what would you do first?

have a stress attack about what to do first



33. Burial or cremation?

cryogenically frozen like austin powers or that chick in cowboy beebop



34. How many online journals do you read regularly?

adam's and kim's



35. What's one thing you're a sore loser about?

my computer not working



36. If you don't like a person, how do you show it?

i'm an ass to them...



37. How many drinks before you're tipsy?

anywhere between 1-46



38. Favorite kind of popcorn?

i don't like popcorn



39. Do you have problems changing clothes in front of friends?

yea... specially if they're gay men (if they'd keep their comments to themself i may)



40. Do you cry in front of friends?

don't have much to cry about, except the fact that i'm a non-practicing heterosexual -but i despise self pitty remember!



41. What kind of first impression do you think you give to people?

the impression that tells them that i know what i'm doing and i know what i want.



42. What's one thing you like to do alone?

talk



43. What's the worst thing you ever said to someone? Its a tie:

me "when are you due?"

random lady "i'm not pregnant"



44. What's the worst thing anyone ever said to you?

"what happened" -duy new years eve



45. Are you a giver or a taker?

i'm heterosexual!!!!



46. When's the right time to go to the bathroom in front of your significant other?

never



47. Favorite communication method?

aim



48. What is one thing you don't leave home without?

chap stick, cause you never know when you'll come home



49. How often do you call your mom?

once/twice a week, she calls me too



50. What's the most painful experience you've ever had?

dealing with the fact that i'm me forever.



-those are always fun.. as was this one

overwhelmed



i'm overwhelmed.

i went to school for a good hour today, then about a half hour of errands in the span of an hour. and came home to take a 3 1/2 hour nap. and i have this overwhelming feeling... why is that?

yesterday when i was non-stop from 9-5pm, with a radio show from 8-10pm i was fine, did well.. felt like i was ahead of the game...

maybe it's cause i didn't do anything today, and i should have done something, now it's thursday nite and i wanna go out yet i have homework due and haven't done anything to call this day,

wait, not nothing...



my computer resets itself when it decides that i'm doing too much at one time... so today when i got home from school i tested it's limits and of course crashed it twice in the span of 15mins... to learn more about it's problems and whatnot...



well turns out that now it won't even boot up... yea turning things on seems to be an overall problem for me these days, i'm just getting used to the way that my life's been for oh i don't know, ever.

it's depressing. but no matter how bad you got it, someone's got it worse... and almost everyone's got it better.



so i'm complaining in my online journal... how generic

i just noticed that there are two types of online journals. the14year old highschool girls journal:

"today i..." and it just gets worse from there...

then there's the overly dramatic complainer, which are the more interesting ones

"life is an oblivian of memories counteracted by the question of..."

but neither is me...



i need something to inspire me, a muse, or a bit of confidence... hmmm...

oh well.. until then i'll be posting generic posts, when i actually have something cool and interesting to say, that's when i'll say it.. but for now i guess i'll be blogging like everyone else bloggs.. guess that's what it's for anyhow rite?

routine



i am a heavy routine person. i have always known this. kinda like everybody before sir issac newton knew about gravity. it's just that i've discovered recently that i am. (refer to the sir issac newton analogy if you want my bottom line)



after watching the movie PI (pronounced pie, it's like the symbol that represents 3.14159265358 if you want more info hit up ) i realized that the world IS defined by equations,and functions.



so i started a self analysis on my personal functions and equations. i've realized other peoples functions and equations as well... this all sounds geeky but it's just another way of saying "how i am" or "what i do"

that what functions are about anyhow, rite?

so yea, one of my best, or favorite functions i like to think of as the rockafeller function.



see rockafeller was a rich ass dude back in the early railroad times. he got that way by first owning steel mills, cause steel is what they made railroads with. but then he though that if he also owned the coal mines, then he'd not be dependant on someone else to get his job done, and he'd not have to deal with their increased prices... so i'm not sure how many different processes there were in order to make railroads, but i think he had lumber, steel, coal... all that stuff he owned so he had the most flexibility.



now i'm like that with knowledge.



i knew how a car engine worked, before i ever drove one. i had to go thru many trials and tribulations before i could actually understand the components of a computer and how they work together. that's one of my patterns, i gotta know the whole story before i decide to get involved.

funny thing to me though, is that that's not the norm. i still can't understand why...



now my poor function, or personality, or pattern, or whatever is that i get into a routine. i stick in a routine for a while, doing the same thing, getting the same thing done, spending hella money on the same thing... and then i decided that i have gotten into a routine and i get myself out of it into another one. and it starts again. i think that's very normal, and very common...

that's why it's poor! cause we've been taught that if you're like everybody, you get a C, and those are unacceptable, A's are what's acceptable, it's only acceptable to be above 90% of the people. somehow that seems pretty unlikely for everyone to attain. for most people.



enuf raggin on the school system and how i'm a victim/product of it....



so yea, now that i'm aware of my pattern... i'm going to try to change it, but then that change will just become part of it

ah hahah ha ha!
damn the man, i found a loop hole!!!

yup, i was sitting on the couch watching TV which is something i rarely do and just then my roommate walks in and questions why i'm watching a jenny jones show... even i didn't know, but since we have no remote i got up and started channel surfing... till i came to the offspring's new video!!!

hold on here, we don't have and never did have cable, and this IS a cable station you know MTV!

me and my roommate watched all tensed up to see if this really was MTV or if it was just some weird occurrence that the offspring was on some public broadcast thingy....

daria came on rite after that! me and my roommate jumped for joy!! yeeaaa we have MTV!!!!

*mental note= i hate the mainstream. i despise kiis fm, and mtv... the other day my friend said hey do you know blah blah blah, i was like who? he's like oh yea you don't watch MTV, she's this hot new singer i have a crush on.. i was like damn man another slap in the face that i'm just not on the same wavelength as everyone else...

hopefully i'm on a higher wavelength, like everyone's visible light, which is in the middle, then there's like ultraviolet and i think macrowaves that have a longer period than the visible spectrum... BUT there's those gamma rays, which are the ones that cause cancer after nuclear explosions, yea man, i'm on the gamma ray wavelength... causing cancer to society (god this is getting lame)

rite, well i may not be the most impressive writer, but this is for me to look back on, not for you to be entertained (assumption = that there is a you) entertainment costs money, i'd have to get better at writing in order to charge... and neither of those things are happening anytime soon.

->back to fry's to return faulty motherboard number 3 wish me luck, or pray, do a rain dance!

back again...

i swear my freakin life's story is to battle putting @*%$*#$ windows on my computer. i've tried more ways and more parts than humanly possible, so to answer your question, no i'm not a human... that's how i did it more than humanly possible... and it still doesn't work!!!

i need to learn linux...

anyhow. school's a blast

i'm not happy... i'm not sure that the cure for that is a working computer but i'd sure like to try... i mean really
oh well... no deep thoughts this entry, i've not been thinking deep lately... but i have been breathing deep... it really makes you feel good...

like i'll be walking to class, and take a huge deep breath, as big as possible, slowly. and hold it in for as long as i can.... i guess it's training for spearfishing, but it also makes me more relaxed and healthier feeling... try it when you're bored and alone or else you'll get weird looks all around.

anyhow, my BRAND SPANKIN new* computer just froze during windows setup, so i'm going to go jump off a bridge, again.

*if you're wondering how i'm doing this i have an old laptop that i use to check emails and bs that's set up next to my slowly dying desktop-> i don't care if it's pathetic!

being home is a good thing, specially when it's for the weekend,

going fishing was awesome.. except that damn fish that got away.... everyone on the boat saw it and hong was on that boat, so i feel a bit better...

but damn man. if i would have just been able to get that shit on the boat i would have been sooo happy, the guy on the boat said that it was a whiteseabass and had to be over 28inches long, and he though that it was like 24-25, but that would have been the biggest fish caught on the boat that day!! (that woulda earned me 75 bucks, cause of the pool for the biggest fish)



anyhow.



i've missed my little online community, i haven't read my daily updated friends' blog pages and commented on them and updated my own...

actually i've tried to update and everytime i click on a link or push back and it erases this window where i write my daily "why the world sucks and i'm perfect" complaint...



BUT good news as far as my future is concerned... it appears that finding a job in SF won't be as hard as i thought, i mean the pay won't be that good and neither will the rent! but SF would be the mad place to be.

i figure that in SF i'll be able to walk the streets, go to bars, clubs, hear good music, and be entertained for a lot less money than if i were to live in LA or SD. if i lived in SD or LA i'd have to buy lots of toys and stuff and a FAT car to keep myself entertained, *prolly get a new dual processor G4" whereas in SF i'd just be.



so you can see... my options are be a kid for a bit longer, or hit an early mid life crisis...



(you can see that i've not factored any girls into the equation, why is that one may ask, cause i just asked myself that question)



as i think further about the question i also see that for my entire life, if i ever got what i really wanted, it's because i worked my ass off to get it. and i'm for some reason expecting the "right" girl to just fall into my arms... NO i need to work really hard at it, just like everything else. SO, i'm telling you all and well myself, that i'm not ready for the "right" girl, or any girl for that matter... NOW, for some very strange apparent reason that some girl thinks that i'm the "right" guy and starts working hard for my time/attention, then maybe i'll re-evaluate the situation... but girls don't do that kinda stuff except in movies. so i'll have to get my motivation some time and then get to the hard work... but for now i got too many things that i wanna work hard and and learn

damn man,

me and compuers were never meant to be together,

i just erased this entry by pushing the back button on accident...



so this is the updated entry. enjoy!!

man i could do this all night, hello navi i'm so glad you came back to see me.

here's ameer's complain area...
cause this is where i complain to everyone online and they read it. it's like that movie jay and silent bob, they make fun of the internet saying it's every nerd's voice or something like that... if you've seen it you know what i mean.

but yea, so i'm a nerd, kevin smith mocked me. whatever, i'll still watch his movies and laugh.

*brighter note: school starts tomorrow, it officially started friday, but i went to class and the TA said that my teacher was in mexico, and that there's no class. that was my C++ class, where i am by far the oldest person in that class, well besides the TA's and the professor... it's a freshman class and well i'm a god damn 5th year! that puts expectations on my shoulders already...

so anyhow, i'm going to go now and hopefully get some stuff done, this entry is my jump start into doing blogs again, i didn't wanna dive in too quick since i've been away for so long

well tonite's a school nite...



haha school nites, i remember being all excited, and all the new clothes that i'd be able to wear, new shoes, new socks, new shirts, jackets, sweatshirts....

somehow it's not those clothes that become my favorite... those always end up torn, stained, lost, or just not so cool anymore and the clothes that i have just had in the closet forever seem to be the ones that last forever, are so dependable to always be in good condition, and feel the most comfy.



is this something weird? or a life lesson that can't be taught, only learned thru personal experience. who knows



i usually write in this thing daily... i guess when i went on vacation, i just didn't have the motivation to think, nor type. plus i've been messing with *ASC quite a bit, in fact i'm 82% formatting my D drive installing an os on my c drive which i just formatted... yea ASC's been down for a while, but i've gotten a new motherboard for her and a new processor! yup for those computer geeks out there, ASC's got an AMD athlon 1700+ and i got a soyo dragon plus motherboard... geez that just sounds cool!



so yea... i'll be inspired to do more and write more when i have more going on.



*ASC = Ameer's Super Computer